On my 35th Birth Day this year I was given a word from the Universe to digest…SURRENDER. It was a word I both breathed a sigh of relief with and also one I cringed at. Not many enjoy the sound of having to surrender. Almost two weeks prior I had learned I was pregnant. A pregnancy not planned. It was a knowing that came to me on the wind in the middle of the night as I slept sandwiched between two of my children. The shutters had been blown open and I knew that a new life was inside me. There was a great shift that had taken place. The shift had been ruminating for almost three years and when it arrived it arrived with a force of nature that could not be ignored. In that moment I knew what it meant to surrender. I had to let go. It was both beautiful and so disturbing.
Now as I linger on the eve of a birth that is more than imminent I realize how completely grounded in the Divine I am. I am not attached. I am groundless. I am not just floating aimlessly. I have surrendered to forcing anything. I have let go and trust that I not only am I a part of the Divine…I am the Divine. I am a part of it all. All I need to do is let go and share what I am. Everything I am and need is already available and present, whether I am here or there, whether it fits into standards or not. I am connected to the energy of it all and in that letting go there is the miracle of life.
Being that I am a part of the Divine and that I am the Divine, I am able to surrender into the folds that I AM HERE. How powerful that statement is. I don’t need to change to fit a NEW me or wait until I more or less of something . It’s here right now. I look around and am aware of who and what is happening. I constantly give gratitude for all that I am RIGHT NOW and all that is happening and then I willingly share it with others. That is it. I have no clue what the next moment will bring but I live in THE moment of connecting and sharing. That is my drive and that is my passion. What I feel, I do. It’s authentic and it creates more authenticity and it gives others permission to do the same for themselves. It’s all a remembering. We let go. We surrender. We remember. There it is. It creates the space of gratitude, peace, creativity, passion, healing and forgiveness. And that for me is what life truly is all about.
Soft and vulnerable while setting those boundaries of no more, no less. I let go of all I thought I was and let the Divine live through me. My reason for why I am here.
Gratitude for this life. This life I am LIVING. This life I am Birthing. This life I am SHARING. This life…This life…