As I grow little Feather in my womb with the passing of the solar eclipse in Pisces , the Spring equinox and the need to move into a life that is authentic for me, I LET GO and SURRENDER. I love me just as I am. RIGHT NOW. I love me in the places that are still healing…from the violence of a man I loved, however brief the encounter, and created a new life with…from the life where I was forgotten and told I was less than because I didn’t fit the mold of the wife that was required…from the years of allowing others to tell me who I was and how I felt…from the medical community who never knew exactly what was wrong or how to treat me but second guessed me when I discovered the answers on my own…from the Wombyn in my life who thought it was better to “Play nice and don’t ruffle feathers. Be a good girl. Be sweet, not too wild.”… from the growing of life in my own womb and not having those around me trust me to know my own body and what my children needed.
I HAVE HEALED. I HEAL. I HAVE HEALING.
I am a Wombyn who…trusts herself…who changes…who is Wild because it is real…who seeks to heal my own body and share so that others may heal themselves… who loves fiercely, deeply and truly…who ruffles feathers because my truth can be loud to those who are accustomed to the silence of their true self being told to shut the fuck up…loves my children with the love of all the colors of the Earth and listens to them because I trust them to trust themselves…is exactly who I am and I am worthy.
I will not hide me because it makes you uncomfortable. I will not think less of myself because I don’t fit into the stifling, perfect box you have created for yourself. But I also will not hate. I will let you go. I will be and put a barrier of fire around me and if you choose to share my fire with me there will always be a seat, but if you choose to put it out you will be burned. I am peace and love but I am also strength and power.