We began to chant and then went into Loving Kindness Meditation and Breathing Meditation. It was so peaceful and so happy. I think I was smiling the entire time. And also so relaxed I had to really fight hard to not fall asleep. After mediation we always have a small discussion about anything that comes up for anyone during meditation. Just because you sit still doesn’t mean the mind is still! Tonight Bhante Pema (the head monk) couldn’t even speak right away. He would begin to and would smile and would stop. Finally, when he did he explained it was difficult to speak because meditation had been so good and peaceful. He then went to say that he pictured Water. I laughed out loud, as my connection to water goes so deep and lately whenever I meditate or pray I do it with my hands in water or water near me.
Bhante explained how water could adapt and take the form of that which surrounded it but it was also easily influenced by the other elements. Water can either be very peaceful or very deadly. It led into a HUGE discussion about how much we are made up of water. Even with still water, at the molecular level, it is still constantly moving, much like the mind, but with a practice to still the mind with a loving and worthy focus we can take ourselves out of the details and see things as they are in their whole. The quote my mother uses quite often these days, “It’s not happening to you, it’s happening around you.” And this is all truth to me.
When I started a new job a couple of weeks ago I realized that I was going to have to adapt to make it in my new work environment. But I also had to find my calm. And while learning new things they challenge you and you find yourself expressing your emotions in a different way. Then top it with being injured at work and dealing with pain, well, I haven’t quite been myself.
It’s like a calm pond of water. You feel and see the vibration of a water bug. It’s small but you are able to observe it, like a calm mind you can observe. But let’s say you are in a raging river with Class V rapids. You wouldn’t notice the water bug. You would be scrambling for your life, much like an agitated mind. Everything begins to be too much. But then let’s say you have a waterfall. It’s flowing and pouring down but it is beautiful and peaceful because of its force, much like a mind that has focused its energy for creating something.
We were all so caught up in talking and having the monks explain how that correlated with the teachings of the Buddha that before we knew it an hour had passed. We were all smiling.